Weirdo.

People talk about destiny, about coincidence. I don't even know what is this.

Well it has been a year since I first met him at school, yes, a year. For fifteen minutes in vain, without a casual intros or somewhat. And, I thought he is just a bit nasty by saying that I was just coming around for the school duty. No, I won't tell you what kind of duty I was doing that time. If he didn't come back a year after, I might have forgotten him. 

Yes it is you, Sir, if you notice what I am going to talk here.

I was performing some kind of show with my group on stage. And my eyes swiftly caught up with a familiar face. I still didn't realize after a few seconds, and I just remember one thing, one little memory from the past which has forgotten.

That guy. Yes, that guy who I met last year.

He was watching us with his left foot up, taking place on top of the other foot. I don't know what is the exact vocabulary which explains that kind of gestures, whatever -- and with his weird expression, well, I should say he is..not so photogenic. In Indonesia, we call it nggak nyantai. Well, I don't know what is it in English. Hehe. Even though it is one of my favourite traits of him. It is just too hilarious that I laugh every single time I see his photos.

I even still remember clearly what I saw that time. Clearly.

Nothing happened.

Yes, nothing. I packed my stuff up and joined some activities. Still, nothing happened.

Until I entered that class. Until he talked to me.

Then everything changed.

Yes we know each other finally. No, I am not going to tell what is going on afterwards, it is just too private.

Not so private anyway. Don't think it is because this sounds like porn, NO. 

Whatever happened afterwards, it makes me as happy as I could be, and I felt that I wanna jump around. I don't know the cause, whether he is so kind or I'm so in love with him, I don't know. It's not that my feelings are requited, NO. NOT YET. Thou shall have great patience with this type of person. Come on, how long should I struggle on this?

I am not telling it because I shall not tell this story so obviously. But I am just a little bit curious about something, so I feel I should post this for that kind of reason. Get it? Oh, forget what I've said. Just ask me if you feel so curious.

But it comes to the question, is he even interested with me?

Dang, I screwed myself up with this kind of question.

LITERALLY.

I LOST MY APPETITE. AND IT MEANS, SOMETHING WEIRD BOTHERS ME.

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Oh, sorry, I just clicked my Caps Lock button accidentally.

No particular purposes.

I lost my control every single time you reply my messages with such a short term of language and a long period of time? And why the hell I am still waiting for your reply and always afraid that i have said something wrong and stupid? Why i can't just simply being so patient? He is on his works as always and you can just wait. Don't mourn. You're overwhelmed. No, you're not bothering him. Relax. Calm down. Keep calm. Exhale. Inhale. Remember those times when he just replied like that and every single confusions pops away. Every guy said so? Oh, whatever. Let me feel just a little bit happy for a while.

I feel so weird, I am furious. I constantly check my phone, seeing the LED if it blinks -- red or green? If it's green, I would take my phone like it has disappeared for a long time and immediately check my BBM.

Yes I use "Who Is It?" app provided by The Jared Company. Thanks, Jared. I love green LED for sure. Because red LED is just too annoying and mainstream. Oh, no offense, no hard feelings... :p

Such a fool, I'm such a fool...

It's hard getting to know him. What I can get is the songs he listen...

Yeee, a same taste of music. 

What makes me crazy is my own intuition saying "No, Adrienne, he is not into you. He is just kind to every woman. He is a gentleman, but not for you only. No."

Bitch please, it has been even less than five weeks and your brain just screwed you up with those kinds of intuitions. Shut up and listen, I am going to work on this.

BUT WELL, SHOULD I STOP? SHOULD I? ;____;

NO. DON'T STOP ME NOW!

-Queen

It has always come up with my principal...

"Whatever you want to get, whatever you want to do, plan a strategy, see the condition, prepare for the worst, aaaaand work it like a boss until you get it."

No matter what will happen!

HAIL EMANCIPATION!

eh, wrong terms and conditions...

Call me stupid, but you might be trapped in the same condition. Oh just don't worry.